do your friends really know you? there're people i've known for sometime now, yet they judge u and criticise ur actions assuming they know it all and have seen it all. on one hand they are nice and they do care. yet on the other u dont even know if u can trust them. buddies that do crazy things and look out for one another but theres this odd mismatched feeling. i wish you knew how we felt about you despite the love.

i'm not perfect. i suppose i have a heap of bad habits. i sleep late. i drink. i club. i break hearts. i cant resist temptation. i use emotions. i bear grudges. i make use this face im born with and im not afraid to admit it. i criticise when someone's make up sucks. i am so not independent a person. i talk to myself in the mirror. the list goes on. but i guess we have 2 sides to each of us dont we? i honestly give a friggin big shit about the 90% of people out of the elite that few do. how many of you sitting out there criticising me and my way of life has bothered to stepped into the lives of the less fortunate and the misunderstood and the underachievers and made a difference? i have. and still am. it reminds me that i'm human and there's someone out there who needs you more than yourself. i'm loyal to my friends. i'd stick by them through it all, no matter what stupid things they do or what others say. thats y it hurts knowing some of you cant. its your character and your call. mine is just to accept and still love you. i know my priorities and study hard. its not mere chance that i dont mambo at all during school terms you know. i screwed accounting up and im determined to push my gpa back up starting next sem. i study hard to get what i want. it doesnt fall from the sky and batting lashes at a prof will not always get u that A, despite what some may think i do to secure mine. i dont spend excessively and stupidly. people claim i'm rich and figure i dont have any concepts on money and what its like to have none. i only have cash to spend because i'm big on saving. well, i'm good at saving and you are not. i can resist urges to spend extremely well while you cannot. you earn less and spend more. i dont spend. works out to me having more spare cash? i'd figure as much. i've good morals. those who know this bit, yes i'm talkin about ___. shant say more. been talkin to people our age, as well as people older, slightly older, much older. its all about stopping in your tracks and not lameting on e bad things u've been dealt with and learning to appreciate what you've been blessed with. thats one of the reasons i do what i do and i can. thats why alvan says only mel can be mel. the groundwork is still there for me. i could count so many blessings in your life, but could you? you think u've got a bad hand, well listen up honey, it could get a hell lot worse. yes i'm complaining and i'm screaming out at you in particular. do you understand me? dont ask. i'll never say its you. not yet at least. doesnt matter. lets all ponder about who we've become and where we're going.

today has been odd. i've been hit by random thoughts and emotions all day. woke up to many many texts askin if i'm okay. none from the right people. then didi texted just to send some love. that was awfully sweet and put a smile on my face :) alvan cancelled sentosa plans which was all too fortunate since i felt ill after last night's mambo. suddenly it struck. that he wasnt on e same island as me anymore and i teared a little. its stupid, since i knew from the start he was never meant to stay. i never planned to get any emotions involved. but as jas said, sometimes i dont know my own heart. had a nice chat with muddy. its m0re messed up for him than it is me, i wish u all the best dear muddy.

went online to find a facebook msg from him =) brought such a smile, till i read e contents. it was about saying goodbye and about how wonderful i was and how he would look me up first if he ever came to singapore. IF. also about how i should def. call him before anyone else should i head over to his part of the world.

knowing i'll never meet him again. ever. kinda sucks.

went out with alvan after than for dinner =) thank you for coming all e way to my place to pick me up :) my mood wasnt e best and he said i looked ready to kill. haha had dinner and slacked and i felt better =) went to cine to get tickets. then i headed off to meet jasmine! i always look forward to meetin her! we may not speak everyday and stuff but when we do, i honestly dont keep anything from her. there's this trust and openness to our friendship. yeap. she's really someone i treasure a hell lot. probably one of my closest friends from dunman days. pity we both dont really play alot of basketball anymore. mayb one day we shall.. if tiffany comes back from aussie.... ...... (daydreaming..)

after that, went for a movie with alvan and jason. caught Wanted. starring angelina jolie. freak. she is REALLY. hot. haha. i suddenly thought of what i said to alvan when i came out of the toilet without my vest. quite funny.

slacked around and headed home. called paul for a possible supper. ihave this feeling he's stil angry w me :(

somehow i've gotten sick of planning. i usually have my entire week planned by e wed beefore. but its friday now and i havent written anythhing on my schedule. i'mjust too lazy too i guess. and i dont feel like doing anything. town's gotten boring. there isnt a movie i want to catch that i havent. and when someone asks "how have u been" i know i'm lying by saying "oh perfectly well.." also if the right people ask the same question i might just need a big hug and i'll burst into tears. god knows whats wrong with me

The 11th International Conference on Work Values and Behavior

i shall update loads on e event when i'm free.. for now, THIS is why it was a blast

he is by far the most handsome guy i have ever met. wow.

We were as one babe
For a moment in time
And it seemed everlasting
That you would always be mine

Now you want to be free
So I'm letting you fly
Cause I know in my heart babe
Our love will never die
No!

You'll always be a part of me
I'm a part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

I ain't gonna cry no
And I won't beg you to stay
If you're determined to leave girl
I will not stand in your way
But inevitably you'll be back again
Cause ya know in your heart babe
Our love will never end no

You'll always be a part of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

I know that you'll be back girl
When your days and your nights get a little bit colder oooohhh
I know that, you'll be right back, babe
Ooooh! baby believe me it's only a matter of time

You'll always be apart of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my my baby....

You'll always be apart of me (you will always be)
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on (we will linger on....)
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

Always be my baby




no prizes of who i have on my mind right now. who i just quarreled with. who i just had an emotional heart to heart talk with. you'll always be a part of me. i'm part of you indefinitely.

ive been single for 5 weeks and 9 days. thats how long my schedule has been packed full to the brim with outings and meetups and stuff with friends from as far back as 7 years ago. after almost 40 people in this span of a month+. i'm left wondering, is this what singlehood's about?

this random misery that hits me at night when i'm alone and the world is asleep. suddenly i dont know who to turn to and who to text or who to call. cos its meaningless to text the guy i've been texting all week, cos by e end of next wk he'd be nothing anyway. is singlehood kinda like a cycle? the whole enlightenment, then the liberation, and the all-time-low. i dont get it

i know, then u ask how about ___. well. the frequency's wrong. really. kahei said the poor boy looks slow. hot as hell yea, but really. all brawn no brain isnt as appealing from where i'm standing now. of cos we have mr.evergreen. tall dark handsome as well. honestly after them both, i hereby conclude im not fated in the right ways with tall dark handsome people. short fair ugly anyone? =/ mr evergreen has declared a more than friends thingy. cool, except i havent mentioned e part whereby randomly making out with other people in a club are allowed so long as the other party doesnt find out. screwed up morals? totally. (comin from me, u'd better believe it)

im seriously considerin going maleless for awhile. mayb half a week, then extend to one week, and mayb one and a half.. and before u know it, i'd be a nun. oh wait. i'm suppose to give adr a shot before i enter nunhood. ugh. males. sigh.

i went out with matthias today. he may be old, but he's absolutely funky and loads of fun. i love hanging out with him! met jojo and walked around and laughed ALOT. it was lovely :) blablabla jojo met sean. god those 2 look lovely together. they look so, right. was this the way bestie and i looked while we were in love? when they looked at each other, there really was this tenderness and this sweetness, and when they held hands, u could really feel how much he loved her. i remember this feeling, not so long ago. the silly sweetness and smiles. its gorgeous, constantly having someone there for you, with you, there for you, no matter what you do or choose. sigh.

right now, sijian is probably e only idiot who could make me wake up at 10am to go to yishun with him to look for lunch and walk about like children. you asshole. cant you see the effect you have on me. mel does not lose control when a male is involved. she doesnt. but she is. she's once again willing to go against logic and common sense. knowing its a dead end yet still skippin down e path. knowing u'll hurt her again and again, u'll disappoint for sure. and u did, u have. AGAIN. its okay, one day she will give up and she will walk away without looking back. cos thats just the way she is. one day its thre the next its over. thank god u are rather strong girl. hang in there.

on a brighter note, i am PRAYING. someone says yes tomorrow. then hall life will be. different. OH EM GEE. i shant say more but AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
ask me in private ;)

hello! its awfully late but i randomly feel like writing something. today's been absolutely marvelous! i just got home not too long ago actually.

ive been so used to spending my days hanging out in town or doing mindless shopping this holidays. so today was a great change! e first part of the day was spent with benjamin! ha i told him i didnt wana hit town! so he asked, "do u like to eat ice cream?" haha of cos i do! so we ended up going to serangoon, taking the train all the way to newton, changing a bus to bukittimah, and walkin to island creamery for yummy icecream!! hah they really have alot of cute flavours! i never knew ben had such an appetite for icecream! we had - horlicks, nutella, mango, apple pie! w chocoballs and m&ms :) i was bloated by e time we were 80% done! haha but he wanted more and ordered - burnt caramel and cookies&cream! haha then we just sat there and talked and laughed and basically had a lot of fun. it was really interesting a way to spend a day. in a corner of town i wouldnt meet anyone i know (well almost no one), and just chillin with a fun someone :) after that we walked down BT road and just talked about everything and anything, giggling like little girls but feeling so happy indeed =) we took a long bus ride down to bugis to meet zhu! heh. ben's alwys a fun person to hang out with. since sydney days he's never been a dull one, from racing to lampposts in sydney, to adventures in a park past midnight, to randomly taking pictures of birds, to doing totally randoms with donuts, and to my first icecream outing. totally sweet =)!

after that met up w peikun in town! ha got dinner and read this odd mag called Beauty Blackbook while he did 15min of indoor tannning. i think i'm a lousy scardey cat. but i am so not going into that machine and closing the lid on myself. goodness. the feeling is terrible. haha he's rather silly really, cos he was afraid of havin me wait alone outside the room, he asked if i was allowed to go in and sit on e couch to chat while he tanned. the guy gave him this odd look and said something about having to totally undress which made us go like "OH... right..." so i sat outside... caught kungfu panda after that!!! omg its hilarious. its SO.CUTE. really. thou e plot was rather simple and it was kinda short i'd feel. expected more actually. i dont think it deserves the 4 stars so many people award it cos the pace was wrong. e climax was too sudden and not intense enough and the show ended too quickly imo! oh well. after that we walked from cine, to far east. and from far east back to cine's youth park. i swear we're totally retarded. haha sat at the youth park and had supper till about 3am! so we spent about 4 hours just talking and talking. i find myself being able to share with him alot that i usually dont. whether its because i'm uncomfortable with others or shy. there's this odd trust that i'm not sure where to place. we discussed everything from love to life to family to futures. the long long chat was really enjoyable. changed my opinion of the guy a great deal, for the better. but our frequencies are still a little off and he still has trouble makin out what im sayin sometimes!

had a super mini row with didi while at supper. sigh. how did a 2min conversation go so bad. somehow, it makes me wonder, what if..

anyway there's silosohotbod tmr. promised to go support peikun! since he's wearing one of my silver bangles for luck (gay as it may look) haha. THANK YOU SMALL for going with me and not pangsehing! <3

my dear, i know u read this, and this is quite retarded. but i'm only writing HERE on my blog, because i tried commentin on urs EIGHT times at least, but got rejected cos i cant read the security feature code thing. what am i, a robot?! anyway. here's the comment love,


"darling, sieze the moment, sieze the day. dont live to regret it.. it hurts to see u cry over the same thing u did 3 months ago and see u still stand in the same box not daring to hop out. call me. ANYTIME. this is 4.41am.

love ya.


ps. i just got rejected twice,four six times by ur security code to fake the computer. i suspect i am a robot."


THERE YOU GO.


ive been thinkin about you and... is it worth holding back and holding on, knowing it might one day be a regret. i know how hard it is to open up and say things u never (usually takes a little alcohol to help, but can be without). i've done ridiculous things in my younger days and really, any other fool in my shoes wouldnt. but i look back now and i'm thank e heavens i did. hell we all know nothing materialised. but i'm glad i did.

may u look back 20 years from now and not swear and wish you did too.

mellovesyou.

haaha okay this is rather lame. i'm talkin to zhu online, and somehow it got onto childhood heros and who u wanted to be! he wanted to be this stormtrooper and i'd rather be a mermaid! so the convo ended with..

-zhu- life can throw some really random stuff at you at times... says:
may the force be with u
melissa is enlightened says:
may u blow many bubbles
-zhu- life can throw some really random stuff at you at times... says:
i hope bubbles is not a guy

im just oddly amused. dont mind me! lookin forward to meetin steph, eggy & jasmine tmr!! =) long time old friends!

hey! just got back from a lovely evening!! =) i met Paul! this guy i knew existed in primary school but never ever spoke to till goodness know when! its the first time i'm really meeting him and speakin to him in person, after loads of msn chats and i'm happy.

he's really grown to be a really cool person, with maturity way beyond his years. we may all be about 20, but he seems alot older and wiser. and conversations are interesting and funny =)

i didnt have high high expectations on the evening really, thought it would be just a dinner, but dinner lead on to a walk from town to raffles city to a drink at the loof and a really enjoyable time till 1+ =) it was pretty awesome! its been awhile since i had a realy proper conversation with someone like that. hell,i cant recall when i last had something like this. probably when tong was last back or something (yes, comparison with tong, paul must have impressed.) haha.

looking forward to another dinner with him, pity my schedule's already packed.

in case ure wonderin, he is NOT next on the list. he's just. a. friend.




oh another note, mambo anyone? think i'm gg w sijian, thats to be confirmed :/

i have been bloggin alot it seems, means i'm always at home.

this whole singlehood thing is going well i think, following my late night enlightenmet! kahei came over today to chill and watch moviee! we surfed facebook and laughed and ogled and wailed for e H-O-T gay. hahah then watched dreamgirls and amazed ourselves with their voices and songs! it feels good just sitting around w a friend watchin a show w/o a care in e world (almost). decided to be a little more FIT after that and went jogging! the first 10 min were fantastic! i was impressed by how totally energetic i felt, then 15-20 min were...erm... a little more challenging.. and 20-30th min were like "come on mel..jog till pk replies..come on mel..jog till sj replies.." then text while jogging which makes time pass faster! i'm good at self deception. haha. anyway! opposite my estate, is the old cemetry which is excellent to jog cos of its purity, really, east coast park has too many people, and skate shops, and drink stalls and dogs and what not. here, its really long overgrown grass on broken paths and pebbles and stones around. its really pretty and u feel different jogging there. :) jogged up this TINY. hill and looked around at a pretty blue sky and green grass. i felt really, free. it suddenly hit me, that this was e beauty of single life, the easy day with a girlfriend, and the random jogging u do alone, and lookin forward to dinner with an old old friend. this is what singlehood is about, and its not that bad! wheet. enlightenment part 2!

went to the gym afterward and realised "OHMYGOD I HAVE A HOT NEIGHBOUR". no i did not do anything to him. really! haha but he does have a RATHER hot bod. haha. did some gyming and tried to ignore one of those disgusting taiwanese variety shows wad bai wad bai wad bian thingy. w e squealing taiwanese voices. gawd. save. me. when e girl left i rushed to switch it off. ugh. didnt even understand what all e squealing meant. foreign languages. gosh :/ while doin gym i got a call. sigh. daddy. he called from brunei. and somehow, he knows i didnt do well. i didnt tell him, nor mummy, nor is it on facebook right? but he called, saying i should study hard this holidays (when i dont even know my next modules..) and i should understand the importance of a good education. and he knows my results could be better :( all when he might not even know how i actually did. he asks me not to look for a tiring job so i can study abit. sigh. wait till he finds out i lost my potential first class. he'll shoot through the roof. sigh second upper is not THAT bad is it :( i suppose when there's first class, second upper is bad. sijian tried consoling me that its not that bad. but he's got a bucket full of As, i could hear in his voice that he knew he'd be devastated with anything less than perfect scores or so. sigh.

okay i'm off to bathe and look pretty b4 i go for dinner w paul! have fun people!!

hello!

waiting for updates on dbl o? haha what happens in a club stays in a club. or so they say.. i've long figured it so doesnt work that way. humans can screw it up before, in, and after a clubbin event! yesterday was a night of birthdays, tonnes of shots and drinks, hot people around, drunk people around, making out, smoke all over the place.. ... it was pretty wild a night.

met jon n valla for dinner at central b4 deciding to walk all e way to dbl o (which isnt THAT far if uve got good company) :) haa we reached at friggin 8.30 to wait for the girls. goodness. 8.30 =/ i was hoping for someone to arrive, just hoping.. then i say this big group of guys coming and being able to recognise half of them, i got a little happy hopin he might just be there. but nope, bugger was late as usual.. when he showed up, i was rathherrr happy, but he just randomly waved in our general direction and walked off. okay........... i was hurt, i admit. small got him over and we had a little private convo which went

"wei small says ure gona cry"
"cry over u. worth it not?"
"i think so.."
"well actually no........."
"so ure not crying right?"
"no"
"u'll be okay right?"
"yea i will"
"okay la then u take care k i see u later i go first"
"k. bye"

SIGH. then after we all went in the bugger just left for another club w/o even saying byebye to me. so he was declared asshole by e gang + jon n valla! ITS OKAY... i have my girls! jevon arrived after that and we played pool =) haha im so glad didi taught me pool when i was much younger! i may not be as good as the guys but i can hold my own. and i beat this rather hot friend of jon's. (pk he shall be called) heh. ;)

then i got a call!! and i rushed outside w kahei's cake to meet rayner =) i think he's awfully awfully sweet a person, to come all e way down to dbl O just to wish her happy bday and sing her a bday song. awfully sweet! e girls told her mel had this ultra hot guy to show her so they dragged her out of the club to search for e cute guy! haha then we surpised her with cute guy rayner + his friend alexis and a cake =) hope u liked ur surprise girl! one of the few sydney surprise that worked. goodness. pity jasmine n mich wasnt around!! haha.

not long after, we went to take shots and have some fun. wheet 3? 4? shots later.. haha yea... .... but we had loads of fun and hit e dance floor. THEN. what happens in a club stays in a club yea....... =x i hope the visuals will keep it that way (AHEM SMALL, VAL, BRYANT, JIE LUN, ur cameras... private only please...) i have this feeling i'm gona get blackmailed.

went out to meet sijian a little later. got burnt on my neck by his cig. i told him i hate it when he smokes, now i've got a blister and a mark to prove my point. heartbroken alr. i hate cigs. i hate cigs. he was being an asshole, so pk dragged me back in and declared he's not worth it. we had our fun and another shot and played silly games at the bar and i found another who's tongue can touch his nose!! COOL! but i can touch my elbow w my tongue and he cant!! small wonders how we ended up discussing such stuff at e bar. hahaha.. we had our fair share of fun last night. i lost all e girls after that! think we were all too far gone to remmeber where each other had gone.

went out for e 2nd or 3rd time to meet sijian. and found him totally wasted on e floor outside w e rafflesians. i dno what on earth we said or what i screamed at him. but he was a mess. i only remember bits and pieces, like alvin (his gay) sayin we shd remain as friends. and some others telling me he's not worth it even thou thye're buddies. RIGHT. that sets my path quite straight i guess, since both his friends and mine agree on one thing at least.

i upset someone last night. and i'm really sorry about it. its been a year dear friend. i never knew. i'm sorry pk n i upset u. i'm really sorry. sigh.

i just spent an hour talking to myself. actually one and a half. looking in the mirror doing hair and make up tlaking to myself. reminding me i deserve better. and 5 disappointing males in one week isnt much, and that it could have been worse.

i just found out a very very saddening piece of news. i think if someone's attached. it should be declared from the start. so poor souls like me wouldnt be moved and wouldnt be attracted and wouldnt be upsetted. then again i suppose its my fault for being moved too easily. TELETUBBY i'm talking abt the guy from. YAR... he's got a gf. sniff. and he texted last night. and this mornn.. and this afternoon his friend told me. SIGH, been comin up with all sorts of logical explanation on what his exact words and whether the girl in the statement didnt mean gf. but it was a little hard to pretend otherwise.ugh. and i m surprisingly feeling hurt. usually mel will just yell and make some noise and to hell with another. crush. haha this time i am a litttle hurt. saddddd...

and someone's not gona be able to make it to dbl o later. disappointed indeed. was looking forward to seeing him, alot. to maybe take my mind of mr bday boy who will be there. sigh. its okayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.

last night sittin on my bed at 5am, i felt this suddenly. lifting o spirits.. all along at times like that (5am after reading a storybook), i feel the compelling urge to text didi or someone to say something, generally the male i'm seeing. just to say something. but last night. that need to text was only short-lived and suddenly it lifted off me. really, i felt lighter and happy and i was smiling and almost crying w the sheer intensity of it. haha yes i know being single has make me a like wonky. bah..ah gong says its midnight highness. hahaha, but in e end i texted gerald to tell him _________ and got a rather interesting reply the next morning. haha ;)

okay. single mel is off to meet the best friend. then to meet the sydney ppl and have a hell of a time. single hot men in dbl o beware !

its his birthday, and he just called to cancel out lunch appointment cos its kinda late. when there was no agreement on time the night before. yeap. disappointment, again..

its okay. i will go to double O tonight with the ladies and the hot guys and have loads of fun getttin high and dancing the night away! ignoring the fact that he'll be gettin himself pissed drunk a couple of tables away. we'll have 3 hot guys and i wont need him. yeap... see ya all at dbl O :)

im very close to giving up.

the stages of progression are wrong.

mel doesnt bank on crushes. if she's gona let the crush grow, she's gotta know its worth it.

mel has to be THE ONLY ONE. if she feels like just another girl. she will jolly well walk away.

mel gets over guys in 3 days. she's only holding back the start of the 3 days cos she stll thinks there might be a chance.

does the idiot get it?

NOPE.


note to self: DO NOT, under any circumstances (eg, alcohol influence, raging hormones, pure stupidity....) date evergreens =)

Hello! i'm back from a weekend of fun in Pulau Dayang! e diving was really an experience =) first time diving without my daddy. honestly i'm such a daddy's girl. but this trip has taught me to be alot more independent thats for sure! its not been an easy journey for me i'd admit, being co-organiser w erikson. i'm quite retarded honestly and i think i did hinder him a little more than aid. only JUST. after the whole trip, did i open hotmail and see the MANY MANY emails about the trip that have been sent. shit. and really. i need to work on counting, i can feel e area u use to count in e brain just shrinking. gettin figures isnt as easy as it used to be! ugh

anyway, assisted the dive instructor Desmond in leadin the open water team. they really are not bad open water students and performed well =) slight gliches here and there but on e whole they're a cool bunch =) guess u learn alot following the open water students. and it places this certain responsibility on u. see, for my past 100+ dives, i was nv responsible for anyone. daddy alwys looked out for me, i just swam along. so i take or granted things like keeping a lookout for the leader, or conrolling buoyancy properly cos it comes naturally for me now. but after being with the students, u realise that ure and example, and it makes u watch ur underwater actions more. the single dive i did with the leisure guys was bloody different. the bunch was pretty wild and harder to keep an eye on cos they kept disappearing all over the place. highlights revolve round the damn triggerfishes! one attacted Desmond and scratched his hand pretty badly, RATHER. SCARY. the other triggerfish exp. was when it attacked the leisure dive group. i saw a triggerfish and kinda panicked cos it was e same species that came after me when i was little. it tried to attact the other instructor but didn't do any damage, thank goodness. there was a leisure grp guy i pulled back and asked to stay back cos e triggerfish was pissed and it was dangerous. that funny chap, tried to show that he could fight the fish, so he pulled out a SPOON. yes, he yanked a bloody SPOON out and held it out to me. situational joke, but i'd never laughed that much underwater before.

oh well. i dno what to say about the trip. wish i had visuals to show, but they are in everyone else's cameras! haha when i get them all, or look on facebook =D haha alot of private thoughts and ideas im having now, dont know if they're all good. thought about issues i had on my mind before going for e trip, then ideas that formed during the trip, now i'm thinking about whats going on now. haha confusing right. well, mel's invovled, what would be expected.. we'll see how it goes after the outing..

met teletubby for dinner today, officially my favourite potongpasir friend seriously. talked about stuff, and yes, mel falls too easily =/