obviously, with a 1030 presentation, i should well be asleep by now, 530 am! but no, here i am.

so much has happened in 2 days. i met a girl. yes, this time its a girl. no, i'm not quite lesbian yet either. its complicated of cos, as it always does when i'm involved. i've learnt so much from her that has done so much for me. disgust, amazement, envy, anger, devastation, confusion, awkwardness. there was a certain release after conversing for so long with her. i saw L in a different light. maybe he ain't as awesome as we both believed he was. i look at him and i no longer see a model of perfection, i'm not as much blinded to his faults staring at me in the face.

so G, thank you.