i realised. even now, after 1year 1month.
im not over it.
right now. i feel like crying again.
i feel so so sad all over again.

reason for this sudden realisation :
she was at mos last night

far too many people were there last night.
thank god i was half drunk/high and didnt remember much.

i wonder if she'd have made it if i'd seen her
franny doesnt seem to think so.