hello everyone. ok i have decided t use this as my public blog. my private one wont be updated sooo frequently lest something starts happening with AHEMAHEM. or i have more personal stuff. anywayyyy lets talk about more normal stuff here haha

oh ya i had a photo shoot last week with jean yip. or rather the first half of the shoot. had to rush off for work so didnt complete e whole things. haha i love doing shoots. so fun. and u get to look pretty and take beautiful shots! but i figured ive got a problem when it comes to shoots. my first look never turns out well. happened at the last shoot too and i was wonderin if its just a one off thing but apparently not! cos this time. e first look, i did at lesat like 20 shots before a got a good one. disgusting. e photographer n e hairstylist couldnt figure out what was wrong. i think my eyes were too spaced out for awhile? so e pictures lacked focus x( bah. but e next 2 looks were pretty fine i guess. cos got into e mood to do e shoot and all. e last one was e coolest i'd say! haha theme was black and white so basically i wore a black tube. e first look was hair generally messed up, then fringe backcombed and comin down e middle of my face and curling against my cheek. it LOOKED nice, but it was very hard to photograph with that stupid curl in the way. i cant even rememebr e 2nd look honestly, i think i was too sleepy? just shoot and go. i looveedddd e third one !! they bunned up my hair, and i wore a WIG. yeap. i DID NOT, cut my hair into a bob. it was a WIG! haha i bet those ppl who believed me are wantin to totally kill me now! haha anyway mervyn wee (jeanyip's husband) saw this picture in a mag and decided my face shape was similar to the girls, so he decided to let me try bob. so fun! thou i find it hard to ttake pictures with such short hair, cos u dont have anything on ur shoulders and covering your neck! but apparently i had good shots there, so we shall see how things go. cant wait till e pictures come out!

haha anyway. i realised, much as i totally LOVE make up and i totally LOVE e brand Christian Dior, i may have to quit working at lido. i seriously cannot stand the girls there. firstly, one is a total bitch to me. i shant elaborate here. secondly, there is serious communication breakdown, since my main language spoken is english, and theirs is chinese, hokkien, or vulgarities. i find it awfully distasteful and just downright disgusting, especially if the girl is relatively cute/sweet looking, that e moment she opens her mouth, "kaninabe eh. li eh lan jiao la" god. every obscenity ive ever heard was repeated in e couple of hours i spent in their presence. DISGUSTING. a girl saying "cb" and "na be" and "ka ni na" just doesnt sound good. god bless them. anyway, i think they are close to dying anyway so it doesnt really matter, considering how much they smoke. today the girl came back from break totally smelling lik cigarette. she smoked so much that she just had to WALK PAST w/o opening her mouth for me to smell her smoke. gross. so converrsation with girl1 was minimal throughout our working period together cos her english is er, not for conversation use and my chinese and hokkien are, not preferred languages. and e momenet girl 2 came, they started yaking and yaking in chineses/hokkien and litterin their ********&(&@%*^%# all over e place. felt really lonely e whole day. me n my p4 essays i was marking. sigh. e only joy i get there is when i get to work with my giant crush, daryl. he is so so cute and just, i dno =D haha he makes me smile. pity he's gay huh. haha why are e good ones gay. anyway he's been attached for 3 years now. and its working out good. i suppose i am happy that he's happy la....... thou i'd much rather him straight. haha he's really nice to me and girl1 and girl2 are wondering why he "na me teng2 wo" as they put it. ie, take care/side me. something like that. haha i dont care why, as long as he continues it. ugh one super disgusting thing by girl 2 (e bigger bitch). see daryl n i worked together in e aftn, so e whole aftn i was helpin him correct a speech he was presenting. all was going fine and i can assure u e english was near perfect since all e words and sentences he used were simple. then, bitch came and gave me "THAT LOOK" for being so close and laughin w daryl. AND THAT BITCH attempted to CORRECT MY ENGLISH. wth. SHE? wants to correct MY english?! UGH. i feel insulted? like hello? are we forgetting a little point here, YOU CANT BLOODY SPEAK ENGLISH PROPERLY? POOF. hmph. so pissifying lar. i wanted to slap her. she wanted to insert a word to relate to a noun before the commar. it would have been correct if there WERE a noun! but NO, there WASNT one. AND, she didnt even know wtf was a noun. UGH. i feel insulted like hell seriously. SHE, correct MY english. granted i dont have flawless and perfect english. but i can sure as hell speak/write better that EVERY one of the Christian Dior girls there. HMPH.

ok what a long long entry. haha anyway. today i noticed something. bitch 1 n bitch 2 are 21 and 24. not far off from my 18. and teachers in marymount are lik what 30+? yet with them, there is never an end of things to talk about. we talk about literature, plays, school, hobbies, even mahjong. yet with e stupid bitches. we dont even get 2 sentences across. i guess i have figured out where i DONT wana spend e rest of my life working. and i realised, teachers really ARE nice people. as in they seriously are. they are the ones, who at 30, will stilll always do considerate and kind acts for each other, who will smile at a total stranger so long as u are a teacher in the same school. who looks kind even though they're ugly. a counter girl will NEVER open a door for u (unless u are a tai tai and can spend loads of cash). neither will they smile at another coutners' girl. hell. some dont even smile at their OWN counter people. ugh. mayb its due to a lack of brains. since couter work is REALLY a no brainer job.

OK im gg to chat and mark. i shall blog another day and upload pictures of my darling kids. i so love them now. im gona be devastated when week 10 comes. my girls :'(