well done.


mel is pissed off today. or right now to be exact.


shant put blame on e day at large since it was really productive and enjoyable. project went well but damn tiring. then went to pick up stuff at The Body Shop warehouse sale with gf. WOAH its like one of the bestest sales i've every been to! stuff were dirt cheap with lippies going at $3-5 and body lotions at $5 and gift sets at $20 from $50. helped people get stuff and spent close to $350! ahaha so retarded. u get one lip gloss for every $50 spent and between me n gf we had like 10! haha looked really silly with 10 identical lip glosses in e same shade. was damn tiring lugging e items around e sale cos they were so heavy! but e stuff i bought made my mummy, wanyi, Jj's gf, bingy, and me happy :) so i think it was worth it


YOU know, i've spent e week tryin to understand and discover independence, or rather, to learn to not be dependent on... ... ... all i've learnt is that independence is avoidance. thats all i've been doing to attempt to be independent. pure simple avoidance and distancing from you. as if anything that went on on one side didnt concern a friend and didnt matter the least to the other. if thats the way its suppose to be, then mayb e whole concept is screwed. if its suppose to be the feeling of losing two of the best friends i have made in the past month or so then fuck the concept of independence really. by having two additional strangers in my life, is that independence? wouldnt that make independence merely being able to be without friendship and such. i'm sorry, that isn't mel. this probably boils down to the different importance and perceptions of a particular friendship by different people in it. didi wonders why i bother so much. he thinks girls think too much. yes i am a thinker. and all my thoughts are weird and off. i dont know how to tell you this in person for we are all busy, and the only thought i get when i see u is to move away and head off in search of independence.


and i appreciate efforts and attempts aimed at making me growup/mature. quoting ezen, the idea is there. i really appreciate these attempts and they are welcomed. i know where they are coming from and where they attempt to bring me. for that, thank you. but you, my dear, should probably take sensitivity lessons. all babies know how to cry. and if its going to involve frequent knocks on my doors for criticism of everything from my bedsheet to how i stand to my random sounds... really i will be happy being a winnie-e-pooh loving baby. i have 3 years till i reach the ripe old age of 22. i will get to where you are eventually. quoting didi here, ________. thank you

why I am fucking pissed with soandso. after his odd objections of the forms of outings i have with didi and co. i talked to didi about it. whether or not it is fine by public opinion if i watch a movie with him and a couple of his friends. the difference between seeing it as one girl with five guys. and a couple with three friends. its not a personality problem. its a perception problem. my family and i are not that conservative. there is no issue in my family with 6 men going diving with 1 woman. much less a movie dammit. and there really is nothing that extremey grown up about believeing going out with a significant other has got to be one-on-one. it really is forcing an argument out of nothing to take place since we both actually are in agreement. illogical? go to the fucking zoo.