You Are An ENFJ

The Giver You strive to maintain harmony in relationships, and usually succeed. Articulate and enthusiastic, you are good at making personal connections. Sometimes you idealize relationships too much - and end up being let down. You find the most energy and comfort in social situations ... where you shine. In love, you are very protective and supporting. However, you do need to "feel special" - and it's quite easy for you to get jealous. At work, you are a natural leader. You can help people discover their greatest potential. You would make a good writer, human resources director, or psychologist. How you see yourself: Trusting, idealistic, and expressive When other people don't get you, they see you as: Bossy, inappropriate, and loud

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Haha i suppose its true to an extremely large extent!

been getting random smses from people i havent been talking to for months or years and i've sent a few myself. all of a sudden these people appear back in ur lives and u realise how much u've missed them over the years. how the every single day bus ride home together then the phone calls till late were long long gone. suddenly everyone's seemed to grow in totally different directions. especially after entering uni, everyone seems to have grown tremendously. didi says i'm pretty much the same internally - naive but sweet, blur but honest, retarded but intelligent. but he says he's worried for me cos i see the world very simply and in an awfully straightforward manner. like everyone is supposed to be nice and there are no meanies around. haha then it suddenly hits like a bus that people are cunning and they are cruel. and they can be horrid even if u dont do a thing to them. and some of them have such big heads u dont know whats going on in them (HAHA) suddenly im stunned. that people actually make friends for the sake of exploiting them and tapping onto their capabilities. like what? how does that even get into ur head. ugh

conformity. realised i dont really subscibe to that much. my sister was reading some psychology text of mine which said how there are numerous kinds of people and the last being those who arent totally mainstream and "nomal" who are overly loud and enthusiatic and crazy and all. my sis was like "HEY LOOK! WE FIT THERE! *BEAMS*" and i was pretty puzzled. is being abnormal all that great? she said "well at least we fit somewhere! there's a category just for us!!" this said with all her innocence and big watery eyes.haha makes me feel different about myself.

the giant difference between me and ezen da ge is that he is willing to conform to norms even if they go against his thinking and logical reasoning. even if it makes no balls of sense. as long as everyone else does it, it has to be right. its as though his life aim is to maintain world peace with the world. as long as im part of it all im cool im fine he seems to think. i sppose thats how people get by and make it through as a normal everyday kinda person. haha the only thing he's done thats probably off the norm would be to grow close to me. and get influenced by my thinking. haha which is about 180 degrees off the normal standards. there are times when friends and group mates do things which are. unethical and not very nice, which he lets go. closes both eyes and of cos doesnt tell me!! now after its all over he goes.

"hey u know...that time.... he..... so we..... not very nice la..... but....... nevermind also hor......" NO ITS NOT OKAY CANNOT NEVERMIND. those would be occasions we dont agree. haha. anyway after that conversation i got back to my room and spoke to the member in question and set things in order again. sometimes im too hard on people. sometimes i wonder how bad things would get if everyone just got their way in everything.

haha my mummy's home from the USA =D i miss my family. i'm longing for it to be complete once again. come 5th nov, my daddy will be back for awhile at leas :( not far far awayyyy rarr brunei is so far. with all the tigers and boars. sniff. stayin in hall i realise the importance of family. like everything moves in and out of ur life. but they are the core that stays. really they are. since i was a little girl like half my height now. my mom would say. no matter what i do wrong or what happens to me, i can always go home. the doors of home will never close to me =) i now understand exctly what she was sayin. if i have kids one day. (ugh..) i will tell them that as well.

and someone told me. for you to know that much about what i do, when i do it, how i do things, whether or not they are accepted, you must notice me a heck lot. thank you, im honoured. but please please try try try hard to pry ur devoted attention away from me and onto others. then u can start speculating and coming up with odd perceptions of them. i think ur job with me shd be done.

pei wen says:
hee i used to tink dat u r a bimbo
pei wen says:
hee i realised dat i was so wrong
pei wen says:
u aint one hee

CHECK THAT OUT.

so for those who think that i am.... its just that u're LAGGING in ur realisation =D

oh yea.

zi high -_-"

HELLO


i know i have to do OB. but i am tired and stressed. and editing the entire 3000 word thingy is goddamn tiring. i love my group. but next time i will gather and form a group of people with strong english ;) haha..



my week's been much better than the last i must say. thou now its quite xiong with that friggin 3000 word thing + 1 OB presentation + 1 marketing presentation + maybe stats case study due. rarrrrr.



i have suddenly been talkin to random people i've met in school and talking quite a bit and hanging out occassionally and stuff. its kinda surprising what you learn from the people u say hi bye to but never actually go get to know. sometimes u wonder if you do really want to know what you find out in the end. oh well. every coin has two sides i suppose



i realise im so stressedfrom school i cant even do things like SHOPPING. was shopping a little with ezen after project while waiting for didi to cme meet me :) i was constantly thinking of OB OB OB that i couldnt relax and enjoy browsing x( he bought formal pants in the end and i didnt get anything. didi bought me a peach tart and some new stickers to brighten my day :) I LOVE WINNIE E POOH. having more and more AND MORE stickers just make me litttle-kiddish happy.



i also realised, being in hall, i miss my family alot. esp my little sister. she's been comin to NTU for ivp basketball cos she's in the nanyang poly team. and i find myself just really wanting to go over to NIE to see her and show her some support. im always eager to wrap up what im doing to head over to wave and give her a hug =D ahaha shortness does run in my family, so said someone who met her -_-"


and kids grow so fast you know. i havent gone to didi's for almost a month now :( and suddenly my baby is no longer a baby. she's gotten so tall her baby fats are gone (shit, mine have yet to go) and she can speak. haha i was sleeping when she came and she couldnt wake me so didi asked her to go bathe saying i didnt bother about her cos she was smelly. haha then after bathing she came and said "jiejie, lingling chong liang le. hen xiang bu hui chou chou le. gen wo jiang hua hao ma?" loosely translated. its "sister, lingling's bathed. smelling nice =) not smelly anymore, please talk to me?" haha and No i didnt wake up still. im a pig. haha but when i did she ran over and hugged me and talked non-stop. im marvelled at how well a 2 yr + kid can speak. haha



ok i shall leave with some pictures again =D


I felt intellectual and smart!!
Pink cupcake birthday party
EZEN CHNG being an ass again!!!
spoiling my every photooooooo
inner girls =D
my steals from the body shop sale in e last post! ALL THAT cost me only like $30. WHAT A STEAL RIGHT
random photo i came across. the one calling us midgets i SUPER. FAST
okay im self obssessed. whats next
kisses =D
seriously, bimbotic or not, i love the hair colourrrr *wheee

well done.


mel is pissed off today. or right now to be exact.


shant put blame on e day at large since it was really productive and enjoyable. project went well but damn tiring. then went to pick up stuff at The Body Shop warehouse sale with gf. WOAH its like one of the bestest sales i've every been to! stuff were dirt cheap with lippies going at $3-5 and body lotions at $5 and gift sets at $20 from $50. helped people get stuff and spent close to $350! ahaha so retarded. u get one lip gloss for every $50 spent and between me n gf we had like 10! haha looked really silly with 10 identical lip glosses in e same shade. was damn tiring lugging e items around e sale cos they were so heavy! but e stuff i bought made my mummy, wanyi, Jj's gf, bingy, and me happy :) so i think it was worth it


YOU know, i've spent e week tryin to understand and discover independence, or rather, to learn to not be dependent on... ... ... all i've learnt is that independence is avoidance. thats all i've been doing to attempt to be independent. pure simple avoidance and distancing from you. as if anything that went on on one side didnt concern a friend and didnt matter the least to the other. if thats the way its suppose to be, then mayb e whole concept is screwed. if its suppose to be the feeling of losing two of the best friends i have made in the past month or so then fuck the concept of independence really. by having two additional strangers in my life, is that independence? wouldnt that make independence merely being able to be without friendship and such. i'm sorry, that isn't mel. this probably boils down to the different importance and perceptions of a particular friendship by different people in it. didi wonders why i bother so much. he thinks girls think too much. yes i am a thinker. and all my thoughts are weird and off. i dont know how to tell you this in person for we are all busy, and the only thought i get when i see u is to move away and head off in search of independence.


and i appreciate efforts and attempts aimed at making me growup/mature. quoting ezen, the idea is there. i really appreciate these attempts and they are welcomed. i know where they are coming from and where they attempt to bring me. for that, thank you. but you, my dear, should probably take sensitivity lessons. all babies know how to cry. and if its going to involve frequent knocks on my doors for criticism of everything from my bedsheet to how i stand to my random sounds... really i will be happy being a winnie-e-pooh loving baby. i have 3 years till i reach the ripe old age of 22. i will get to where you are eventually. quoting didi here, ________. thank you

why I am fucking pissed with soandso. after his odd objections of the forms of outings i have with didi and co. i talked to didi about it. whether or not it is fine by public opinion if i watch a movie with him and a couple of his friends. the difference between seeing it as one girl with five guys. and a couple with three friends. its not a personality problem. its a perception problem. my family and i are not that conservative. there is no issue in my family with 6 men going diving with 1 woman. much less a movie dammit. and there really is nothing that extremey grown up about believeing going out with a significant other has got to be one-on-one. it really is forcing an argument out of nothing to take place since we both actually are in agreement. illogical? go to the fucking zoo.