hello!

6.06am, im awake! odd huh. in about an hr or so my gf's gona wake up and study (pengz). meant to do OB&D proj then go off to bed. but shoppin online got the better of me. its addictive.

my my. i realise i suck at remembering normal faces. there are way to many people in NTU for me to rememeber all e names and faces. so i really am in general waving to whoever waves and smiling to whoever smles. for some reason this happens alot in Canteen 2. haha random observation these couple of days..

ive been emo again! and i feel like smackin my own butt for it and for stressing e hall ppl. im sorrrrrryyyyyyyy! its odd. how ive been feeling pretty lonely these 2 wks. even though im constantly surrounded by the bestest people u could ever ask for neighbours =)

my roomie's e greatest of cos, thou she cant stand my weird unconcerned attitude towards dust. it is quite funny really. when woman goes magicclean the floor then ask "see how clean e room is mel?" then i think to myself "huh? was there dust in e first place!" but i think its time to clean my table. i found a few bodies of dead insects and dust balls and (let me confirm, im checking) hair, tissue bits. oh my my. when is didi coming ah. hha

there's wan. yi. haha their names are damn versatile i telll u. no matter how u mix and match still ok. e 4 words are wan yi hui ling.
wan yi
hui ling
wan ling
hui yi
wan hui
yi ling
wa i think my math rocks. this is a kinda or permutation? or combination? haha im not sure either. those 2. kee siao. seriously. i dno what else to say. haha they are also my bathing parnters. and i have started to grown dependent on them. sht.

and downstairs of cos there's the guys. bingy and jj. nicest guy in e hall and mr. handsome boy. haha had a very, enriching, enlightening, disturbing, etc.... chat with e guys till late last night cos i zi high and cant slp again. (haha small if ure reading this, my HIGH after 8 still applies) haha. i learnt things i've never known from these 2. and jj is officially e guy in NTU who makes me cry e most. someone chuck one of my sister's gold medals at him please.

u know, i think im a weird person. jj credits it to my traumatised childhood. bingy credits it to my ultra loving daddy who's decided to shelter his baby daughter since she was little, ensuring she'll only marry one who's capable of lovin her in e same manner. but yes i think im weird. im highly dependent. and ultra needy. ie, i'll prob curl up and die if no one bothers about me e whole day. and i'll be really lonely and get depressed and crying if left alone. e thought of comin back to hall in e afternoon when no ones around scares me. ugh. what a worm mel seriously. u need to grow balls. im also really sticky. literally. go firgue.

ok i suspect whatever's been biting me is living under my table. i just got bitten again. ugh. what a bitch. when i find u. u will be our JCRC's vp's supper tml night. ugh.

have i ever mentioned that i love balloons. esp those helium filled flying ones! call me a kid but i really cant help smiling watching them =D haha i also love bubbles. i like to blow bubbles. look at bubbles. pop bubbles. run about with bubbles. haha i love kites. didi was e first person to fly a kite with me. he taught me to. or at least he attempted to. i didnt raelly succeedd, even thou im totally unbimbotic and totally smart.

i want to club. havent clubbed for damn damn damn damn damn damn damn long. bloody 2 months i think. withdrawal symptoms alr. omg!

oh another random bit of info, FRANCIS's COUSIN IS MY TUTORIAL MATE. haha like wth? damn qiao. haha they call him STELLA. and i havent told her about what happened after drinking. hha. im really looking forward to the sydney gang thing on sat!! OMG ITS 2 days from now!! ahhH~ haha been damn long since i actually saw e girls (franny is a girl). i miss them. even thou we're not close till charles would term "suck cock buddies", we have ur fair share of joy and laughter dont we =) even thou one memeber's missing! and we miss her.! we'll still have fun and play around while we're attempting to keep our GPA's up! hoho im excited. SMALL ARE U READING THIS.!!!??? SUAY LIAP AH. i didnt grow. hahahah

i am going to sleep. cos its very late. and i cannot sleep when e sun comes up. and i have project tml. (now is a good time to use the word really) I FUCKING DONT WANT TO GO. those who've heard why u'll get why. those who havent. er u wont then. haha. i dont think its appropriate to say it here.