random thoughts

been a long long time since i actually posted an actual post instead of "blogged private". goes to show what a secret rollercoaster ride my life's been. haha nonsenes. boring more like it.

ive been doing some thinking these couple of days. and i look at me now, remembering the girl, one year ago, too weak and emotionally uncontrollable and unstable to take a bus home herself. im suddenly so thankful for the people who stood by me and accompanied me on those lonely rides. to u it might just have been a ride home with a friend going the same way. yakking all the way home. to me it was a way to keep me sane and alive. especially e netball team. i doubt i'd have made it without those girls. that crazy diverse and funny bunch of people.

some random ppl who saved me then. GF.smint.bern.jac.bobby (dont think ive forgottened u).shyong wei.jasmine.teletubby.andrew.adrian.timmy.chrys.amelia.serene.suyi.belle.darren.gabriel.shaun.val.
froggie.e entire netball team........ aiyo. e list is quite long i realised. but thank u to all of you. really.

my gf rocks. without her id have killed myself more than once. she's just the best in e whole world.

think one especialy nice person was bobby. for some reason he took it upon himself to cheer me up constantly every single day (no he was not interested in me.) he did e things id be missing having lost didi. e smses every period. e pei-ing me to mug and even do nothing. e phone calss and all. man that was one heck of a nice nice friend. thank you

especially thankful to simin/smint. alwys there to make the special effort to make people around her feel good. always going that extra mile. sending that quirky sms or two when u most need it. i rememeber some occasions she'd ring me just to ask if i were in school. just so we could go home together so i wouldnt be lonely and curl up at the back of 135 crying. even though 135 isnt the fastest route home for her. and the late night calls t 4am. i will miss those. blur and gong as i am at that time in the night. i'd still wana talk to her. hmm. wonderin when willl be the next time i go over to her place just down the road to bake a nice oreo cheesecake. messing up her entire kitchen along the way. by god i will miss am missing smint so much. she's gone just one year i keep telling myself, but nope. it doesnt stop the tears from falling